The second half of this week my ADHD has been a bit of a motherfucker. Last week’s travel with the addition of coming off of an ethanol-fueled week has been a hinderance to my focus, productivity and emotional states. I have been a little rough around the edges in the 72 hour following my return and it took me until this morning to truly get my brain back in working order. With that said, I am BACK BABY! And, now, I’m feeling like I’m in a place where I can start executing and further defining my plan of attack over the coming months and year.
When I got back from Denver on Tuesday night, there was a package waiting on my doorstep. In that package were two books, both the same, titled Principles by Ray Dalio. One of my closest friends, and somewhat of a mentor/older brother figure in my life, Erik, had sent me this read as we have been discussing some challenges with mental health and one another’s personal growth over the last couple months (he’s seemingly much farther along than I). Since last year he has sent me a couple of books – see previous post – that have been insanely helpful, to the point of prompting this journey, and so he sent me Principles to read and deconstruct together. He also figured that if he sent both copies to me it would force us to actually meet up. Ironically, and so far unbeknownst to him, I had purchased this book at the airport bookstore in Denver the same day. Great minds work alike! Or, is it think alike? Whatever. I gifted the copy I had purchased to my friend Adam who was watching my dogs while I was away, as I already intended on buying him a book in the same vein.
So far, this is a very insightful read, and not only at establishing principles, but also as a timeline of economics over the last 50 years (I’m not very far into it – Chapter 3 – but so far I am getting a synopsis of Ray’s life and the events that shaped him and his business). It’s a great overview for a dumb fucker like myself who truly has no grasp on economic markets, how they operate, trading, commodities, bonds… Blah. I could take a nap. Surprisingly, however, it’s been quite the page turner in the little time that I’ve put in; either that or my reading abilities are slowly increasing. Probably a mix of the two. See bottom of page for other books I’m reading if you care to know.
Quotes from Principles that I like so far:
- “You better make sense of what happened to other people in other times and other places because if you don’t you won’t know if these things can happen to you and, if they do, you won’t know how to deal with them.” – Ray Dalio, Principles.
- “There’s always risks out there that can hurt you badly, even in the seemingly safest bets, so it’s always best to assume you’re missing something” – Ray Dalio, Principles.
- “It’s smarter to start with what you really want, which are your real goals, and then work back to what you need to attain them. Money will be one of the things you need, but it’s not the only one and certainly not the most important one once you get past having the amount you need to get what you really want.” – Ray Dalio, Principles.
- “…meaningful work and meaningful relationships were and still are my primary goals and everything I did was for them. Making money was an incidental consequence of that.” – Ray Dalio, Principles.
Yesterday I decided I have to stop what I have currently been doing for money as soon as I can and find a different way to make some bank. I am stressed beyond belief, don’t like the uncertainty and inconsistency of these paychecks, and am ready to buckle down and get something else going. I need a thinking cap because the flipside of that coin is going back to work for another corporation that could lay me off at any given moment – like my last two positions prior did. I guess that’s partly why I’m doing this whole sobriety challenge/year-in-review thing anyway. I feel like I am purposefully making myself uncomfortable in a way I never really have and creating homework that I should actually enjoy doing. I mean, that’s the mission and that’s all positive. I just need the money to follow because being broke in this world is a bitch and I’m quite fed up of not having a solid nest egg and not being able to go heli-skiing in Revelstoke whenever I want. I think Nas said that; at least that’s the white guy cliff notes as I doubt Nas would be interested in hitting the slopes with Tanner Hall or Sage Cattabriga-Alosa… I could be wrong.
Speaking of year-in-review and sobriety; I think I am going to make a change to the year of sobriety and change it to sobriety until I finish my trek to Patagonia. So, One Year No Beer, may turn into a longer period… Thoughts?
I think the Physical Health portion of this challenge is going to be the easiest part. I mean, how hard is it to open the front door and run to the gym for an hour or so? Today I had a KICK ASS workout. Front squats, squats, deadlifts, calf raises, 20 minutes cardio. We went heavy and I was able to squat 315 for the first time in a while. Yesterday I incline pressed 95 lb dumbbells for 4 reps and my shoulder didn’t bother me much at all. Today I was a little low on energy, as I fasted this morning and didn’t have any caffein until after I ate a delicious post workout poke lunch with my friend and workout partner, Jarell. I’m feeling strong and like I’m almost detoxed from a week of solid binging. Next week and this weekend are going to rock, but I’ll save that for my Sunday night blog which will include things I need to work on and goals for the week.
6 positives for the week:
- Getting to hang out with my brother, his friends and my family continuing one of the best weekends of my life into the week.
- Consistently writing, journaling and reading.
- Setting up my blog and YouTube accounts properly to get this process all started.
- Eating better as of Wednesday night. Salads were so necessary and I’m already seeing the beer weight drop off after only two workouts.
- Amazing friends who pick me up from the airport (Nate & Joss), put me through killer workouts (Jarell), watch my dogs for me (Adam & Bri), and send me books to help me become a better version of myself (Erik). Thank you all! <3’s
- Ran a mile in 6:58! That’s the fastest I’ve done in years. I typically never run, but hey, I’m getting back at it now!
Here’s a picture of my brother after he saw his house turned upside down:
(For the reference, please see: https://alifetosummit.wordpress.com/2017/10/05/estes-park-the-wedding-my-last-day-of-sobriety/ ). Everyone involved had a great laugh.
My friend Brandon sent me this and I thought it was pretty original & hilarious:
For focus I have been listening to this track on repeat and holy shit can I buck out some writing and tasks when it is playing. I just randomly found it while listening to a playlist on Apple Music. Pretty, pretty, pretty, pretty dope.
And, lastly, in case you are curious, here is a list of what else I am currently reading:
- The Bone Clocks by David Mitchell for fiction.
- Extreme Ownership by Jocko Willink & Leif Babin – I listen to this on tape while I drive or workout.
- Tao of Seneca for a daily thought booster (also a Tim Ferris recommendation).
- 52 Small Changes for the Mind by Brett Blumenthal – a once a week read (one chapter/week) to help improve mental health over the course of a year (also purchased for me by Erik)
- Adam (my friend mentioned above), also gave me the Tao of Pooh to read after having a discussion on stoicism and eastern theologies… I haven’t added that to the list quite yet, but it’s on my nightstand.